From the book: Freedom from Nicotine – The Journey Home
Quitting “You”
The real “you” never, ever needed nicotine. You were fine on your own. The real “you” never experienced the artificial highs brought on by elevated nicotine levels or the devastating lows that often accompany withdrawal. We typically functioned more towards the center without such violent or disturbing neuro-chemical mood swings.
So what if you never, ever needed to smoke, dip, chew or suck nicotine again? What if your mind was once again itself, filled with a constant sense of calmness and getting its dopamine releases the natural way, from great food, big hugs, cool water, a sense of accomplishment, friendship, nurturing, love and intimacy? What if days, weeks or even months passed comfortably, without once thinking about wanting to use nicotine? Would that be a good thing or bad?
Quitting vs. Recovery
Quitting is a word that tugs at emotion. By definition it associates itself with departing,
leaving, forsaking and abandonment. But the real abandonment took place on the day
nicotine assumed control of our mind, when new salient memories made us forget that we
functioned well without it, when we abandoned “us.” This book isn’t about quitting. It’s
about recovering a person long forgotten, the real neuro-chemical “you.”
The word “quitting” tends to paint or dress nicotine cessation in gray and black, in the
doom and gloom of bad and horrible. It breeds anticipatory fears, inner demons, needless
anxieties, external enemies and visions of suffering. It fosters a natural sense of self-
deprivation, of leaving something valuable behind.
Now contrast quitting with recovery. Recovery doesn’t run or hide from our addiction but
instead boldly embraces every aspect of this temporary journey of re-adjustment. It sees
each symptom and challenge as a sign of the depth to which nicotine had infected our
mind. When knowledge based, it recognizes the symptoms and celebrates each new
challenge as an opportunity to reclaim yet another aspect of a life once drenched in
nicotine.
Nicotine dependency recovery presents an opportunity to experience what may be our
richest period of self-discovery ever. It’s a time when tissues heal, senses awaken and the
brain’s neuro-chemicals again flow in response to life not nicotine. It’s a period where
each challenge overcome awards the recovering addict another piece of a puzzle, a puzzle that once complete reflects a life reclaimed.
It is not necessary that we delete the word “quit” from our thinking, vocabulary or this
book. But it might be helpful to reflect upon when the real “quitting” took place, when
freedom ended and that next fix became life’s primary focus. Although nearly impossible
to believe right now, you won’t be leaving anything of value behind - nothing. Everything you did while using nicotine can be done as well, or better as “you.” All of the neuro-chemicals once controlled by nicotine were present before we started using and will gradually return to pre-nicotine levels. Every brain chemical that nicotine caused to flow is still present. They were always there and always yours.